Where to start off?
/looks around the room spinning on a swirly chair
Hm, I think I’ll start with yesterday’s eviction. What a terrible place to start huh? I knew what was going to happen ahead of time, so I think I was the only one that wasn’t shocked at all by the turn out of the vote. Everyone had to sit back and think about who flipped. Yes, it was me. Soon enough all my going back and forth saying I voted this way and that way caught up to me.
Sarah figured out it was me, which she’s smart girl, I knew she would. Plus, a couple people knew how I actually voted and that’s what happened. Maybe I shouldn’t have done this, maybe this makes me a terrible person, but in the long run of things it was a good move for me. Without it, I’d never fully know if I’d be able to rely on certain people in the game.
That part happen, next, HoH took place and I was excited, but knew I needed certain people to win, like
Erika would have been my choice at winning. Yeah, it didn’t happen. Nothing happened like I really wanted it too, but what does ever happen like I want it too? Yes,
Jee and
Nathan tied in HoH. Now, you’d look at this and be like this could be a good thing or this could bad thing. I looked at it and prayed
Jee would win tbh.
Jee had already told me previously for saving his tush that he wouldn’t nominate me and for once since the beginning of the game I semi believed him. On the other hand,
Nathan winning could be really bad for me. Like really. I figured he was super pissed at me for voting
Sarah out. I mean he had already previously told me he would be pissed about it if it happened. So,
Nathan wins HoH.
I’m like fuck my life when this happens. I don’t know why, but I just thought I needed a plan. I needed to do something huge. I mean I was upset about HoH and I did want to punch a baby, and then I went into my I-don’t-care-about-this-anymore-I-don’t-care-about-anything-anymore mood. Ew, right? Anyways, next I decided that I should delete my account. Not that I ever really wanted to quit the game. It was out of anger and yet strategy. Yes, I needed to be dramatic. I’m sure if I do happen to make it to the end of the game; I’m going to get asked why a quitter should even win this game? Ya. Also, I had
Erika telling me that
Nathan wanted to put me on the block, which wasn’t helping anything. Also,
Nathan proposed a final three deal with her too. I think I told
Nathan about 2343243242 times I didn’t believe anything he was saying. Honestly, I don’t know what I think now, but I do know that I needed him to think he talked me back into making my account. I do need him to think he owns me because that means I’m not getting nominated no matter how mad he might be at me.
Overall, did it work? I’m not sure tbh. Could I get nominated? Hell yes. Is Nathan smart? Duh. Would he put me up? Of course. Could I actually get voted out? YES.
I’m just saying for now that I hope I’m not nominated, but I won’t be surprised in the least if I am.
Ciao
Bleh. I have a lot to write and not near enough time to write it. 
