Post by Amy on Jan 26, 2010 19:26:11 GMT -5
Okay, so this week I want HoH. I'm not going to lie and I have no idea when Im going to do all the HoH stuff either between student teaching and working, it seems like I have no time to do anything. Which I really hate.
Right now, I'm kind of like bleh because I just realized something I realized like last week, but just brushed off. I have no final two. I have no deals for a final two at all. I mean no one has even offered me one, which honestly bums me out. Like I figured at least someone would want to be my final two. Yaknow? Meh, but I guess since Im so M.I.A. that could be why.
God, and what makes it worse is that I think everyone I'm close to has final twos. Like Janelle, I thought was really close to me, we share a freaking DR for gosh sakes, but I'm pretty sure she has a final two with David just because they are so close. As for Nathan and Sarah, they probably have a final two together because they are close in and out of the game. I guess neither of those things could be right, but thats how it feels to me.
Next, piece of evident is that Nathan promised me he would target Nakky if I voted how he wanted me too. So I did. I was like Oh Cody never breaks his promises (to me atleast) and he's never going to lie to me, but he did. Okay, this is the part where I get kicked back to reality and stop living in my own little dream world. Why is he obviously protecting Nakky? He doesnt really have a good reason too and when I asked him about it, I just felt like he was giving me bs.
Also, I might be like a close second or third on these peoples lists, but like it just isn't good enough? I'm so stressed out about not having a final two because I want to do good in this game. Meh. Because I was such a piece of shit the first time around.
Thats why I think I might need to drop my alliance that I have now. Goddd, which I dont want to do and make some other deals in the game. I mean people that know I'm good for my word as Andii. I mean I dont typical lie in games very much, so I'd like to think I'm good for my word most of the time.
Okay, I pretty much just feel like an idiot. The end.
Right now, I'm kind of like bleh because I just realized something I realized like last week, but just brushed off. I have no final two. I have no deals for a final two at all. I mean no one has even offered me one, which honestly bums me out. Like I figured at least someone would want to be my final two. Yaknow? Meh, but I guess since Im so M.I.A. that could be why.
God, and what makes it worse is that I think everyone I'm close to has final twos. Like Janelle, I thought was really close to me, we share a freaking DR for gosh sakes, but I'm pretty sure she has a final two with David just because they are so close. As for Nathan and Sarah, they probably have a final two together because they are close in and out of the game. I guess neither of those things could be right, but thats how it feels to me.
Next, piece of evident is that Nathan promised me he would target Nakky if I voted how he wanted me too. So I did. I was like Oh Cody never breaks his promises (to me atleast) and he's never going to lie to me, but he did. Okay, this is the part where I get kicked back to reality and stop living in my own little dream world. Why is he obviously protecting Nakky? He doesnt really have a good reason too and when I asked him about it, I just felt like he was giving me bs.
Also, I might be like a close second or third on these peoples lists, but like it just isn't good enough? I'm so stressed out about not having a final two because I want to do good in this game. Meh. Because I was such a piece of shit the first time around.
Thats why I think I might need to drop my alliance that I have now. Goddd, which I dont want to do and make some other deals in the game. I mean people that know I'm good for my word as Andii. I mean I dont typical lie in games very much, so I'd like to think I'm good for my word most of the time.
Okay, I pretty much just feel like an idiot. The end.